Just remember in the winter

 If I live or die, I am going back home, back with YOU, my life, alone in wonder. 

Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed that with the sun's love
In the spring becomes the rose

I want your stories, not followers, out there where I can see them

Because the SPIRIT said it would, but I have to dissappear so You can experience just YOU,my life and I growing in synchronicity 

For Your Eyes only

https://youtu.be/RkZf-Hfqx_A?si=uo8R4SwitIAqvD3O

In the 80s for 8 yrs I only saw Jesus in the words in red then the SPIRIT  told me it was YOU, SPIRIT that made it happen according to my intentions. Then at 12 yrs my heart was broken and you said that was because of the veil over my eyes that needed to be torn That there has always only been YOU and I and I lived alone many years learning what that meant. There is a way to fulfill both sides but not without letting go of presumption and growing like a tree in synchronicity with the SPIRIT. The humiliation of this cross was huge my whole life.  BUT, if there is no other way.

Let it be! 

Beatles

Sailing Christopher Cross

Pamela Nesin has been my long time room mate and companion. I leave everything I own my house, cars and and my accounts to her. As nobody would have cared enough to spend the moments in sanctuary for as long as she did and was my companion on the road in wonder with me in California from 2001-Until now. 

The SPIRIT says to stay strong and follow the synchs which I will. But I want to do it like I did my whole life, off in wonder alone as I cannot hear my moments since I left being alone to reach you. This moment gives me the chance to return and stay in wonder so I wake up with YOU, my life again.