Many things have happened but Mom is in a
comfortable place and my sister Sharon and her are learning to start
their mornings perfect by though they ARE VERY DIFFERENT from each other
and used to being alone. But it is working out well and all the
problems and fears and tiffs of everyone have quieted down now and it
looks like things are working out and mother is feeling better than she
has in a long time though she has gone through so much.
Yesterday,
mother and I were feeling the same thing. I believe this happened so
that I could share with her what the SPIRIT did in such a situation for
me. You see, when everyone had a difference of opinion over getting a
new place or a fixer upper and to go to a realtor or feel our way to a
estate auction or what, what needed to happen was to let things unfold
as we had on the trips in such a way that it be the SPIRIT's guidance.
Through many trials and tribulations we have come trusting the SPIRIT.
Everyone had an opinion but in the end it turned out to be exactly as
the SPIRIT indicated but no one wants to acknowledge that. But we have
LEFT THE STRUGGLE
and we are letting the SPIRIT proceed anyway. I was able to share how
the SPIRIT handles it in the midst of great difficulties because of what
is happening right now. I only get a few jobs a month now and it is
just what I need but then to have a customer not pay because they think
they can makes a big difference when I am on the edge but things seem to
be working out though for the first time in 13 years one whom I told
the importance of our needing every invoice paid has chosen not to pay
even after we went to such lengths to travel there and do the job last
month. So again, I let go of those that it does not work with, whom I
could not reach and put my attention where it is working. This really
has worked for my mother too as our experiences have coincided so that
the SPIRIT could speak through them. Like on these forums I had to let
go of those whose intention were not to see the true intentions and
rather to intentionally misunderstand. At this point, time is short and
all my focus needs to be toward what the SPIRIT is doing and time will
reveal whom has rejected SPIRIT and who has true intent among all
involved. It will all come out in the wash as they say. I am just happy
that mom is so comfortable and away from any fray.
It works that
way with the SPIRIT that when we think we know better we are actually
REJECTING SPIRIT and we go on thinking all is well and we are first in
line but we soon find we have fooled ourselves trying to appear this way
or that and we end up rejected having rejected SPIRIT.
But I have left the STRUGGLE
though I post my stories and pictures the SPIRIT is what will do it
now. Many things have been posted and the SPIRIT revealed the smallest
of points overlooked and so many want to cover that up but it will be as
the SPIRIT has said.
Many have REJECTED the SPIRIT by lifting
up their own brain and don't even know it. That is the way it is with
the self right, they think
they have a form/appearance of GOODNESS but really they have denied the power of the SPIRIT
because of ego. These find they get no attention by us or SPIRIT
because they give no attention to SPIRIT only appearance of goodness. So
many that have gone through this experience with SPIRIT and the coming
STORMS over the years think... well I am better than that guy, and so
they have rejected what they don't understand. Denying the least of
those that the SPIRIT really speaks through they unknowingly have
rejected SPIRIT and by doing so are actually being rejected themselves.
Lifting up the self over SPIRIT is really rejecting SPIRIT which is
actually leading to rejection at the moment SPIRIT is needed. Salvation
is in that moment! In this MOMENT!
We have left the STRUGGLE and we let them believe their better and that that self rightness will somehow help them in the moment that is to come,,,
we have left the STRUGGLE.So
a lot of people feeling hurt by what they think someone else has done
but we all have felt that way and carried that cross but now we no
longer try to reach them or explain our point of view as we have
surrendered to the SPIRIT that YOU WILL REACH THEM and we ourselves have
LEFT THE STRUGGLE. When we no longer have to prove that it was 'THAT
PERSON' that hurt us we find it was ourselves that created this life to
reach us and as I found in the valley of loneliness when I said "Girl,
Girl, (My life, my life) why have YOU/you forsaken me. It was to find
that it was perfect to reach me to the heart that I no longer see it as
bad but rather "Blessed is SHE who nailed me to this tree" for though
SHE/LIFE slay me yet do I love HER. And I now see that it all was
perfect. Thus I go on and though I die daily in little ways now these
only remind me of this great promise and in seeing it all changes to
wonder and glory.
In YOU/MY LIFE all shame and blame are nailed
to that cross that I experienced "with YOU", and the life I now live is
seeing only the wonder of how YOU took that pain away.
I have left the STRUGGLE
and no longer have to explain how this one and that one hurt me because
it was only YOU REACHING ME TO THE HEART that I might know YOU.
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Here
is another video where we stopped at the Oklahoma state line and I show
the ODD contraption I made to hold the luggage bag on top of the car.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UfORw_MydvQhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gkm115DKk3M
Better to have the tornado today than the day you are arriving/departing, yes?! 
